♥ Saturday, May 16, 2009
hey dear readers:))
sorry for such a late post...
having my sa1 recently...next monday than officially over because i still have art.
im at my mom place now...
today...im just gonna post about what im troubling about these few days.
urgh...i really cannot get through it without spamming my blog with what im feeling now:DD
heehee...
i think im use to doing this now that i cannot change my habit XP
anyway,,i'll post my april's events & happenings some other time on other posts...
sorry readers!!
ok..main topic for the day,,my STEPMOTHERa few days back..i told my stepmother that i got a feeling that i wont do well for my physics paper this sa1.& after that,,whenever i go and study with my friends in the library..she become very suspicious about who i study with and where i go to next.worst of all...when i tell her who im studying with,,she still dont believe me & ask me the same question again and again!!!she even said this:-"SO...u study with XXX(the persons name),,you will score very well luh..right??! than when you dont score well...i can blame that person for it hor?!!"-"im starting to feel that you are not trustable anymore..."-"since your physics paper cannot do well when u study in the lib..than dont go study le la!!!"(ALL IN CHINESE**)i felt really annoyed with all this bullshyt luh!!!hey aunty!!! first of all,,my results are already better than my parents AND although you're from china,,i dont think your result are any better than me..so..SHUT UP!!!i dont like to lie...& i hate people who DONT trust me...since you feel that im not trustable...THAN dont trust me!!! dont need to crap & tell me officially that you dont trust me...i dont need & dont want to know about it at all!!!i know that there are many other people out there who are way better & cleverer than me..but i dont need you to tell me all those shyt!! i know i'll never be able to beat them...neither can i score as well as them,,BUT at least i did my best!!! I TRIED MY BEST FOR EVERY MAJOR EXAMS I'VE BEEN THROUGH!!!i'll only challenge myself to score better everytime..NOT OTHERS!!you will only blame me for not scoring well..but you'll never encourage me when i really did well!!!what you always do is simply IGNORE,,GIVE COLD SHOULDERS & "POUR COLD WATER"(in chinese) on me!!!mothers will always support their child no matter what..will you??NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!let me just ASSUME that because you're not my real mom,,that's why you will always blame ev erything on us & not your daughter instead even though its really her fault.just treat it as im really 'lucky' to have you as my stepmother...now...everyone who read my blog will know why i did not celebrate mother's day with 2 mothers this year.i just feel that its really not worth it at all to celebrate with someone who dont appreciate whatever you do at all...i dont want to show other how "good" our relationship are when it is just merely an outer shellof everything...in fact,,its rotten in it...i know i sound very evil & horrid here...
but...im just venting my angers out here...
so yea...sorry readers for such a bad impression of me.
readers can ignore this post because its just my spams for my troubles recently..
oh ya,,if any reader feel like commenting things regarding this post that will agitate me rather than consolling me...
i encourage you to comment to yourself instead of tagging me about it..:)
thx.
msTRICIA
PERFECT-GODDESS; @
msTRICIA.
